You'll never be what is in your heart

So I took a little break from blogging. If all of 2010 can be considered a "little" break.

I'd been feeling guilty about it for a while but 2010 was a very hard year and I just felt like I didn't have anything positive or interesting to say here. I pretty much retreated from the internet world in general. I stopped scrapbooking. I stopped following blogs. I was still doing Facebook but not like I was a year ago.

Instead I started battling my weight (and still am). We started infertility testing. I dealt  with a couple MANY other health issues. We struggled to get my daughter through her first year of high school. We dealt with financial setbacks. I turned 40. For me, personally, it's also a challenge to know how much to talk about online. I know I've found solace in regard to my weight and infertility by reading about others who struggle with my same issues  but I'm not sure I want to put my struggle out there for the world to see. I know my husband doesn't want me to put any of it out there. Unfortunately, these struggles are a huge part of who I am and so for me NOT to talk about them here...I would be lying about what my life is really about. So I've just stayed quiet.

Recently though, I read through some of my old posts and I've realized how much I miss blogging. For myself. Life moves fast and if I don't stop to record the little moments then I forget them. This was painfully obvious at my high school reunion a few years ago. I didn't remember half the stories and antics my friends were talking about even though I was assured that I was there for most of them. My daughter has grown (physically and emotionally) so much over the past year and I have nothing to reference back to. To the way she used to be. I just feel like I've missed out on so much by NOT posting about my life.

And so I am taking small baby steps back into the blogging world and you'll be seeing posts from me a couple of times a month (that's my goal at least) and we'll see how it goes from there:)

 

Comments

[Nicole K.]

i've missed you jen. - and all the inspiration you bring.
glad to see your coming back a bit!!